“Eeewww!” Kat Screeches as she cups her hands over her mouth trying to stifle her sarcastic and over exaggerated outburst.

“I know, I know…” I roll my eyes and huff. “It was so embarrassing.” I cup my face in my hands. “He’ll never want to try to kiss me ever again.” Although, that may not be a bad thing at this point.

“Oh hunnie, he will too.” Kat is trying not to laugh. There is nothing funny about this. “It may be a while, but he will.” And now she’s laughing.

I glare at her. “Maybe it’s good it didn’t happen. It’s too soon anyway.”

“Too soon!” Kat exclaims. “You need this to happen Raven. You have got to move past this. Grant’s gone, he’s not coming back. And even if he did, he’s a Prick and doesn’t deserve you.”

I wince at her painful yet truthful statement. Deep down inside, I know she’s right. Grant’s gone and even if he did come back, there is no way I could forgive him for what he did. As much as it hurts, that was a dick thing to do and I deserve better than him. Although, after I got sick earlier, right as Asher was leaning in for a kiss, I’m thinking that he isn’t going to be my better choice. God I can’t believe I threw up in Asher’s pumpkin spice latte cup. It was the only thing within reach and there was no way I was going to make it to the bathroom. At least the cup was a large size, and almost empty. “Well, I don’t think anything is going to happen with Asher now. Not after that,” I pout.

“You couldn’t help it! Don’t worry so much about it. I’m sure he understands. He even asked me if I was sure I didn’t need him to stick around any longer when I got here. That alone tells me he was affected by what happened. I sent him packing for your sake though. I could tell that you were mortified.”

“I still am. And thank you.” I’m not sure if I’m relieved or dismayed that he wanted to stick around longer. He rushed to get me out of that coffee shop and get us both back to the apartment, probably in hopes that I wouldn’t puke all over the inside of his Lexus. Once we got back here, I reclused to my bedroom, lay down in bed and ended up falling asleep. Kat was here and Asher wasn’t when I woke up.

Copyright ©2015 –ND White

My eyes shoot open as my screams escape me. It’s dark, I can’t see. I am gasping for air. My bedroom door flies open.

“God, Raven!” I hear someone say as they are rushing towards me in the dark. I feel a set of strong arms wrap around me. I scream louder. I am kicking and trying to break free.

“Raven, stop, I’ve got you….shhh, I’m here, I’ve got you.” It’s Asher. Oh my God, what’s he doing here? “Raven, please….relax….” His voice is calm and soothing. I stop kicking. I stop struggling. My tears start flowing. I am sobbing uncontrollably; shaking from head to toe. I feel Asher hold me even tighter. He starts stroking my hair and gently rocking me back and forth as I nestle my face into his chest and weep.

*****
I inhale a different, yet familiar scent. Mmmm, something smells good. As I am slowly waking from a deep slumber I realize that although I’m snuggled up in my own bed, I am not in here alone. My eyes flutter open and I find that I am tucked safely into the arms of someone. What the hell? I tilt my head back and my breath catches as my eyes come into focus and I see that the person who is holding onto me so tightly is Asher.

I feel myself on the verge of panic as I’m trying to remember what happened and how he got into my bed. Just relax Raven, and think. I slowly and quietly take in a long slow deep breath, hold it for a little bit, and then exhale. I’m doing my best to not disturb Asher as I try to remember why he’s here with me in his arms. The smell of his cologne is actually helping to relax me. He does smell good.

Copyright ©2015 –ND White

It’s now May and we are well on our way into summer. Most of you are probably jumping with joy, I however, am not *smirking*. I’m a fall and winter loving person. But at least this summer I’ll have something to celebrate; which is the release of Raven’s Undoing.

I announced a couple of weeks ago that I finished writing the book. I then took some time off from it. There has been unforeseen circumstances that arose in my personal life that has hindered me from putting the time and focus into my writing. I have also been neglecting my blog, twitter, my Facebook author page, interacting with my readers, and the promotion of Raven’s Innocence. For that, I am giving everyone my sincerest apology. Life happens and things get in the way; it’s just the way that it is. But hopefully, going forward, things are going to start getting better and my attention and focus is going to shift to my writing once again. God knows I have missed it and I have missed interacting with all of you.

I’m going to start self-editing Raven’s Undoing and make sure it is exactly how I want it before sending it to my editor for her to pick apart. Hopefully this time, I won’t have as much ‘Yellow’ as the last time!

Keep an eye out for unedited excerpts and new teasers too! (I totally forgot that I need to start working on those as well.) And as always, thank you everyone for your understanding, and also your continued support. (((HUGS)))

Much Love,
Xx
Nicky

I cry out as my legs give way and I slowly slump down onto the dock. I sit with my back against the railing and draw my knees up to my chest and bury my face in my gloved hands. I am sobbing uncontrollably. My heart is wrenching in pain and feels like it might explode through the front of my chest. For a moment I am thankful that no one else is here to witness my emotional breakdown. Lately the park has been secluded this time of evening, right before dusk. The temperatures are beginning to drop even more each day as that bitter cold northern air brings us closer to winter.

I continue to weep, for how long, I’m not sure. I feel my body eventually start to relax as my heavy sobs turn into just a slow steady stream of tears. I finally lift my face and realize that the sun is setting around me. The moon looks full as its light starts to dance across the lakes water. I am suddenly aware of the chill in the air as I start to shiver……….

The wave of dizziness passes and I let go of the railing in an attempt to stand up completely on my own. I really don’t feel so well. I take in a deep breath and start walking back towards my Jeep. I only make it a couple of steps though before I stumble and slam down onto the dock, barely catching myself with my hands before my face eats the wooden walkway. Damn that hurt! My head is spinning again and I feel very close to passing out. I can’t believe this is happening, not now……….

I feel my body weakening. My arms give out from underneath me as I start to relax down onto the cold dock, through no control of my own. My phone slips from my hand as my grip weakens, but before I can press the emergency dial button. Oh God. I can’t move. My eyelids are growing heavy. The light is fading away. I try to cry out for help, but the sound that escapes my lips is barely a whisper. It doesn’t matter anyways. No one is out here to hear my cry for help.

I guess this is it. It’s not so bad; peaceful and easy actually. Better than dying from a broken heart I guess…

Copyright ©2015 –ND White

Nine and a half months of blood, sweat, and tears; I have finally finished writing Raven’s Undoing! With that being said, many of you know that there is a lot of work that has to now be done before it is ready to publish. All I know is that I’m hoping to launch it during one of the upcoming summer months. Raven’s story is only two books, so this second book will be a tell all. I won’t make you wait any longer on a third book for answers. (I will be writing a third book, but it will be someone else’s story, not Ravens.) Starting tomorrow, I am going to periodically post Unedited Excerpts from the book, to get you all excited.

When I wrote ~The End~ I felt such relief and also overwhelming sadness at the same time. This past year and a half, Raven and Grant’s story has been playing out in my head, consuming me. My characters have been telling me their story as I have been frantically writing it all down, for each and every one of you. These two have an Epic ending to their story, and I can’t wait to share it with you! For now, I bid Raven and Grant farewell. Maybe someday Raven’s snarky voice will pop back into my head demanding that I write another book starring her.

Xx
N

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This is a delicious read! I promise!