Our song

Feeling the shocks wave through my body
My soul sings to your melody
My heart beats to your rhythm
The sounds ripple all around me
I feel my senses come alive
Beads of bliss dance from my fingertips
The stillness in your breath catches mine
Singing through the winds of the stillness that carries our song

Copyright ©2014 –ND White

Ravens Innocence ~ Unedited Excerpt~Run Away?

We lay there in his bed, Grant on his back, me cradled in his arms on my side. I’m tracing the branches of his tattoo with my fingers, over his abs, up his chest, admiring the detail of the artwork and thinking just how breathtakingly beautiful it is, he is, all of him. He watches my fingers move across his body and I’m wondering what he is thinking right now. I feel exhilarated, yet exhausted. I think that was the best sex I have ever had in my entire life thus far. I grin while replaying it over again in my head.
“You have a beautiful smile, you know that?” Grant interrupts my thoughts. I stop tracing his tattoo with my fingers and I look up at him still smiling. He leans in and kisses me, but it’s soft and delicate, not powerful and possessing like it has been up until now. I like it.
“Thank You.” I break away and sit up, wondering what time it is. Grant watches me with his turquoise eyes while I peak around him to look at the clock by his bedside table. It’s almost 9 o’clock. Time is slipping away quickly. I wonder if Kat has text me yet to make sure I’m still okay. I wonder how her night with Ethan is going.
“Are you okay?” He asks.
“Yeah, I’m good.” I smile. “I didn’t realize it was getting so late.”
“It’s only 9 o’clock. The night is still young. We’re just getting started.” He has a sexy smirk on his face again. Just getting started? I don’t know that I can handle another round of that so soon. I let out a light-hearted giggle and slump back down into his arms. “Just getting started?” I repeat.
He laughs. “Why, was that too much for you to handle?” I can hear the smirking in his question.
“No, not at all. It was quite invigorating actually. Might have been the best sex I have ever had even.” I give him a teasingly look.
“Might have been?” His tantalizing stare is causing the blushing heat to rise in my cheeks again. “Well sweetheart, it looks like next time, I’m going to make sure that it is the best sex you’ve ever had. When I’m done with you, there will be no maybe about it.” Oh my.
“Looking forward to it.” I say teasingly.
“Are you?” He smirks but I just grin and nod my head. Grant’s face transforms from sweet to devious and I see a shift in his expression and thoughts. “Raven, be careful what you wish for.” Huh? I give him a questioning look. He takes his fingers and brushes a curl away from my face and tucks it behind my ear.
“I think I know what I want.” I’m trying to get him to explain his comment further. He lets out a heavy sigh, raises up, and peers down onto me. He cups my face in his hand and I notice his expression is hardened; it almost looks dark.
“Raven, I’m not sure that you do.”
I frown at him totally confused. “What do you mean?” I ask.
“You don’t really know me. Not like you think that you do.” Where is this coming from? “I don’t know if you really want to.” He holds my stare, waiting for me to say something but I don’t know what to say; talk about a change in mood. Jeesh.
“Why would you say that? I don’t understand.” I’m searching his hardened stare for a sign of emotion but can’t I detect what he might be thinking. “Grant, what is it? Why would I not want to know you?” I push his hand back and sit up next to him. I’m not understanding how we went from sexual bliss to dark and depressing here.
Grant doesn’t take his eyes off me, and suddenly I am aware of how naked and exposed I am and I feel very uncomfortable. I pull the comforter up and cover myself. Grant lays back, puts his hands behind his head, closes his eyes, and lets out a heavy sigh.
“I really like you Raven.”
“I really like you too. I thought we covered all that. So what is this about?” I’m feeling annoyed right now. I’m try not to let the hostility come through my voice but I’m not doing a very good job of it. He opens his eyes and tilts his head up and looks at me, but this time his expression has softened again.
“You know what, it’s nothing. Forget I said I anything.” Oh hell no. What? My eyes widen and I give him a ‘What the hell’ look. He reaches over and takes hold of hand, while still laying beside me. He knows I’m not going to just let this go that easily. “There’s a lot we don’t know about each other. There’s a lot you don’t know about me. And I think if you got to know the real me, you might run away scared.” Didn’t see that one coming.
“Run away scared? Why would think such a thing? So far, I like what I see, for the most part.”
“For the most part?” He raises an eyebrow at me.
“Well, you’ve had your moments the past couple of weeks, but that’s totally understandable, considering-“ I shut my mouth. Not going there. “Look Grant, when I first met you, I thought you were one of the kindest, most down to earth guys I have ever met. Not to mention sexy as hell.” He cracks a smile when I say that. “And I know we’ve had our challenges lately, but you’ve done nothing to make me want to run away scared. I don’t know why you think that I would, unless you turned out to be a total psycho or something; but I wish you would let me decide all that for myself.” Now I sound like I’m pouting.
Grant sits back up and wraps his strong sexy arms around me, pulling me into a warm tight hug. “Okay Raven, if you say so.”
“What do you mean?” I whisper.
“I mean, I’ll let you decide for yourself.” I feel his grip on me tighten as he hugs me harder. Then he cups the back of my head with one of his hands and in a dark whisper he says, “But you might lose your innocence in the process.”

Copyright ©2014 –ND White

Don’t let me go

You pull me in
I push away
Your words haunt me
Your love scares me
So afraid of the emotions I am feeling
I need you
I run from you
You grab my soul
I fight to let go
Please don’t let me go

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Slipping Away

The ground shakes beneath my feet
I fight to stay to keep hold of the nothingness that surrounds me
I feel myself breaking
I scream in silence as my breath leaves me
Scared I look for you
Blinded by own fear
I feel myself falling
Slipping farther down
You reach for me
Brushing my fingertips
You try to keep hold
But I let the darkness take me

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My cries at night
Tears dripping onto my pillow
Wishing to hear your voice
Wanting to feel your touch
Loving you from afar
Drowning in my empty soul
Hoping the wind will carry my tears
Through the silence of my storm
May they whisper to you

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Afraid of losing you
Afraid of letting go
The silence that engulfs my soul
Yearning for a flame
Wishing for your touch
Needing you to breathe life into me

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