Twisted Reality ~

You promised to love me, to cherish me
You were supposed to be my rock
The one I could count on for anything
My best friend
Instead you poisoned me
Tore me down
Crushed me
Dimmed the light in my eyes
Left me crying in the dark
Suffocating
Silently screaming
Falling victim to this twisted reality

Copyright ©2014 –ND White

Alive~

Whispering in my ear
Your thoughts of love pouring from your soul
Your arms wrapped around me tight
The warmth of your flesh caressing my skin
Your lips down my neck
A fire burning deep within me
The look of love in your eyes
As my soul reflects from within you
Your love embraces me
Protects me
Keeps me breathing
Keeps me alive

Copyright ©2014 –ND White

Thank You for your Patience

I have been getting asked by many people when Raven’s Innocence will be released and all I know for sure is that we are trying to have it launched in the next couple of weeks, before the end of this month.  This process is taking a little longer than anticipated, but as I discussed in my previous blog entry, I am okay with that.

Thank you everyone for your support and also for your patience.  I will keep you up to date as all of this unfolds.  Currently I am doing my final read through to make sure it is exactly how I want it to be before uploading it for launch.  I am getting so very excited! And, I am truly hoping that all of you find Raven’s Innocence to be a sultry summer read.

Xx

Nicky

 

I am okay with that…

As the end of May quickly approaches, I now realize that my deadline to have my book all ready to be released and actually be published, may come and go, and still no book…

Now, with that being said, I truly am OKAY with that.  This past month has had many trials and tribulations.  I lost one of my proofers, but was quickly saved by another. (Thank You Mal!!!)  I had to work on some serious rewriting of a few things.  And in the midst of all this going on, life just keeps happening.  So many hiccups and bumps along the way.

A very talented author has been helping me with some of my rewrites and one evening I was so flustered, through no fault of his own, he told me to “take a break and eat a bowl of ice cream.”  Now, I didn’t eat a bowl of ice cream, but I did walk away from the computer for a while; the rest of the night actually.  Sometimes you need those reminders from others to let yourself take a break and just breathe.  (Thank you AJ & Scarlett)

So, where am I now in this process?  Mal is finishing up proofing and I’ve started over from the very beginning of my book, going through it word by word, making sure I am satisfied with what I’m reading.  Once this process is complete, it will be time to format it and prepare it for upload into Create Space.

At this point, I am hoping to have this done by this coming Saturday, May 31st.  However, that may not be realistic and if it’s doesn’t happen then, it will soon thereafter.  AJ and Scarlett both reminded me that when I have my book in my hands, it needs to be exactly the way I want it to be.  Also, that I am Indie Author, therefore I create my own deadlines and I do this on my own time.  There is no need to rush through the process.  This is about quality now, the finished product.  So what if it releases a little later than I had hoped.  If pushing it out a little farther insures that I will have peace of mind knowing that my book is exactly the way I want it to be for my readers…..Well then, I am truly Okay with that.

Suffocating

So broken, so lost.
Can’t find a way out.
You were my light in my dark.
Now the light shines no more.
My muffled screams can’t be heard.
I reach out, never touching, never feeling.
I can’t escape this tortured place.
Lost in the darkness of my soul.
Missing the fire that once burnt in yours.
Now I am suffocating from being trapped here once again without you.

Copyright ©2014 –ND White

Just relax Nicky…..

It’s been a while since I have given my latest update on this whole self-publishing experience, so here is a quick re-cap. Editing, editing, editing, and more editing. Oh yeah, did I mention Editing? Work all day, edit at night. Somewhere in the middle of all that though, my graphic designer has completed my cover. I can’t wait to reveal this. It’s fantastic! Oh, and did you know that if you are uploading your cover for an e-book and hard copies, you need two different formats for those because they just won’t look quite right? I’m not a graphic designer, and I cannot begin to understand why this is or how it all this works, I just know it is what it is and One size cover does NOT fit all.

I’ve purchased my ISBNs from Bowker. Speaking of which, listen up, if you are self-publishing it is very important to purchase your own ISBN. Do your research, I did mine. I was also advised to do this. And since you’ll need a different ISBN for each site that you upload and sell your book through, whether it is an e-book or hardcopy, it’s best to buy them in a group of 10. It will save you money in the long run. But again, I repeat…. BUY YOUR OWN ISBN!!!!!!
Okay, moving on from that…….

As it gets closer to my release date I’m getting more excited…..and more stressed out. I need something to help me relax. I need something to help me slow down and just breathe.

“Just relax Nicky. Just breathe…..” Words that I hear daily from a very good friend. In fact, I find myself chanting this quite often throughout my day. Right now I am consumed with trying to get this book through the editing process. After that, I have to figure out how to format it and get it ready for upload and launching. That thought alone makes my heads feel like it’s going to spin off my shoulders and detach from my body. Thank goodness for very dear friends who have experience with this, especially my Editor and author AJ Linn. Those two have been phenomenal and so very supportive. I can’t express my gratitude enough to those two! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

I know this blog was short and sweet, but I have six chapters waiting for me in Google Docs that needs my immediate attention. My editor is busting her bum to get these done for me, I need to catch up! Until next time…

Xx
~N~

Forever love them…

It’s when every fiber of your being feels it
When every beat of your heart only beats for them
When you breathe, you catch yourself holding onto it just a little longer
When you close your eyes, you see their face
When you open your eyes, you see them in everything else
Every thought you have, has them in it
Every smile you give, they are hiding behind
When your eyes light up, it’s because they are holding the match
Every song that plays, the beat dances through your soul and moves you
In the rain you feel the sorrow of missing them
With the sun you feel the warmth of finding them
Their voice calls to you through the whispers of the winds
The moon reflects their soul across the waters while you watch from the rocky edge
Your dreams are filled with them
Your reality craves them
And until you take your very last breath
And until your heart beats one last time
You’ll forever love them…

Copyright ©2014 –ND White