Was it her long red hair
Or maybe her big blue eyes
Her flirtatious little smile 
A mouth full of lies

The way she looked at you
Indulging your little games
“Oh F*** Me J.P.”
Maybe it’s the way she said your name

She built up your ego
Made you feel good
No f***s given that you were married 
Your misery she understood 

Watching her ass
Hips full swing when she walked by
The scent of perfume 
Everything about her caught your eye

For months this went on
A conscious you seemed to lack
A family at home
You betrayed behind their backs

Until the day came
You relaxed and slipped up
Your affair was discovered 
With that conniving little slut

Ignorant of you to think 
That you were the only one
The game that slut was playing
You were just one of many in her twisted fun

When you looked at me
Was it her face that you saw
Or when you looked at her 
Did you think of me at all

I hope she was worth it
Everything you wanted me to be
But I can never be a home wrecking slut
I’ll never be your f***ing whore St******e

© Nicky D ’23

Do you feel its heartbeat
Is it the same as mine
When you hold it
Do you like the feel of its spine 

The stories it tells
All the information it holds
When you put it down
Do you feel lonely and cold

Does it stare back at you
Longing across its face
I wish I could be seen like that
So I stay here, just in case

A deep attraction 
I can’t compete with that
It clearly has more to offer 
But where is its soul at

I’ll sit here in silence
Waiting for my turn 
Watching you watching it
Wishing your eyes would burn

If I need to say something 
I best type it in
The only way you’ll really hear me
Is if I hit Send

Precious time being wasted 
We’ll never get that back
But don’t worry about me
You keep your focus on that 

I shouldn’t have to ask 
You should want to give 
I’m supposed to be your partner 
Yet a lonely life I live

By the time you notice that I’m gone
It’ll be too late to try and plea
As long as you kept my picture on your phone 
At least there you will finally see me

© Nicky D ’23